Friday, July 8, 2011

2 A.M. Reflections

I couldn't sleep this morning. As happy as I truly am, there are times when things get really tough. Not having indoor plumbing is a challenge. No Air conditioning in above 100 degree temperatures is rough. Entertaining a 3 year old and 1 year old with very little toys or real play things takes lots of creativity and patience. (I'll write more on how we manage that later). Chiggers and ticks and all kinds of icky, crawly, biting critters are a pain.

I was thinking on all of these challenges, when my darling unborn son began to do a tango in my belly. My attention and thoughts turned to him and we began to have a bit of a conversation.

"Why are you so restless son?" I asked him. "What could possibly be bothering you at this hour?"

And then I imagined that he answered. "It's not comfortable in here mom. It's cramped and noisy and everything is changing so much all the time. I thought that being in a family and getting a body would be great, but I'm not sure I like it so much right now. This isn't how I thought it would be."

And I tried to explain. "I know it's hard right now, but this part won't last much longer. It is going to be great, I promise. There will always be hard parts, but the good will always out weigh the bad. If you only knew how much you were loved..."

I am greatful to have opportunities to learn from my children.


  1. Almost cried. Very tender lesson. Thanks.

  2. Beccy, give me your coordinates and we'll drop you a care package. Give it a rainbow umbrella/chute and everything. -hug-
    Seriously though, what do you need most?
    We'd love to help you.